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I’m working on my entry for Morocco, but first I need to get this off my chest.

I don’t know what it is about this place, but I am having major self-confidence issues. I feel like I’m in middle school again. I am really afraid of putting myself out there I guess. I spend a lot of time in my room and lately I’ve just been really home sick. I think it has hit me how long that we’re on this ship. How long it is until I see home. It is so hard to get into a routine. The workout room is impossible to get a space in, the food is pretty bad, and every day my schedule changes. Not to mention that my class schedule is whack. On A days I have one class at 415 (besides Global Studies at 920) and on B days I have class at 1215 and then at 2 55 (also after global studies at 920). I thought that being in the play would lift my spirits and keep me busy, but I’m not really feeling the Greek tragedy. Not to mention the director is not very good. He’s very indirect and slow with his direction. We have rehearsals from 730-1030 on some nights and 930- who knows when on other nights.

I’ve also been sleeping a lot not only for lack of feeling like do anything else but also because it’s the only personal space that I have.

I’m having trouble meeting people that don’t think their hot shit. I guess it takes a certain type of person to do something like this. Outgoing, adventurous people. But so many of those people are really arrogant. I’ve met some people that are just so backwards to me. It makes me realize why people hate Americans.

Also, I feel like I finally have really great friends that care about me at school and so its hard to come here and not really have anyone. But then I feel like I havnt established myself enough and put myself out there enough to really have any close friends. I know its mostly my fault for I guess not being open minded enough. I guess theres nothing really to do about it now but suck it up and put a smile on.

Just keep swimming